highschool bitches

I have never been so disappointed with the human race. Today I was shown by my quote on quote ‘best friend’ screenshots of text messages he had with some girl I know. She is calling me “ugly” multiple times and saying I’m “messed up”. Let me say that I have only talked to her out of school once, and it was for homecoming…where I didn’t have a choice since she was part of my group. And even then I didn’t necessarily want her around. This opened my eyes and made me realize how much I hate everyone. I am known for isolating myself from humans because of people like her. I’m not saying I am a saint, I’ve said some wrong words and have done some stupid things. But I have NEVER done things to that nature. I’ve had a conflict with her before and she hasn’t stopped talking about me negatively since. It was months ago. It’s like I am always on her mind and she has nothing better to do. That’s just how it seems. Currently, she is in another state and is STILL texting my friend about me, and when he tries to change the subject, she just keeps going. She is many hours away with a friend who lives there, and apparently her friend (who I have never met, and don’t even know her name) was agreeing with her that I was ugly and ‘messed up.’ Since when does a complete stranger know what I look like and my life in general. They must have been on my social networking. To make it seem even weirder, I don’t even post selfies on my accounts. So she must have searched around for pictures to show her friend.

And you know what? It’s bothering the absolute shit out of me.

I’m not doing this to her, if I was I would understand it more. But I don’t EVER think about her, let alone talk about her. So how could I say anything mean? While, she is on vacation sending numerous texts about me and calling me names. Even when I am not around her, talking about her to others, or just doing anything that revolves around her, she doesn’t stop-never ends.

And it bothers me, that it’s bothering me. If that makes sense…I am bothered by the fact that it is making upset. It shouldn’t and I know that. But I can’t help it. I know you shouldn’t care what people think of you, and that’s usually how I am. But it was so brutal (over-exaggerating I know) to me, that I can’t help but feel upset and angry.

Since when is that okay to do that? It’s such a stereotypical high school occasion~gossip, drama, ‘scandal’. and I honestly didn’t think that those things happen. But when you surround  yourself with people like that you cannot be surprised. And that being said I was barely around her in the first place, so that makes me even more confused. And where is she getting the information that I am messed up? I have only small talked with her and nothing else…ugh anyways, as you can see this is literally kicking my ass about this.

I want to text her and tell her to stop. It’s not fair and she has no reason to be acting in such a way. I’m not doing anything to her, so why is she doing it to me?

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