p.173

my flower,

I loved you completely
and we were honestly in love
I know I know I know

we should have been perfect
for each other

I know it

but you weren’t grown up enough

even though we’re the same age

you weren’t mature enough
you didn’t know enough

so you lied

you lied to me day after day
you broke my heart
you destroyed my soul

but I still didn’t give up

I knew I loved you
I know we would have lasted for eternity
I know the true you

the you I fell in love with

the you who loved me
the you who loved plants
and bunnies
and the earth
and the rain outside

but you let yourself go

you allowed yourself to
become
depressed
and anxious
and lost

then you lost me

you gave up on me
because it was the easy way out
even though you used to love me
completely

you took the abusive
lying
lazy
drug abusing
girl

that’s all she is

just a girl
she’s nothing to be proud of
her parents must be so disappointed

but I don’t care

because you lost me
you fucked me
then you fucked me up

and you left me for dead

dead.
dead.
dead.

and I’m still dead inside

so I won’t bother
I won’t bother worrying about you
you’re the one missing out

so

call me when you grow up

we’d still be perfect for each other

so call me when you grow up

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