sometimes recovery is looking
for water rather than trying
to escape the desert.
a pill that subsides the scorching in
your lungs just enough so that
it’s easier to breathe.
and maybe the breathing will never
maybe the aching will always be
and you will never remember what
it felt like to not be conscious of
the burning in your chest,
but you will forget what it felt
like to want to put yourself
some of us were born with fire but
not all of use are able to extinguish
sometimes you have to live with
embers inside your ribcage like
fireflies in a jar.