I need to get to work today. I am ready to go, a quick shower, dried my hair, dressed, light make-up. I’m feeling good. I’m going to have a coffee at my favourite coffee shop then de-clutter my desk, sort out the piles of paperwork and start organising my term. I can do this!
What I do need to do is get these words out. What he did to me and how he treated me were and are not ok. It is not ok for you to tell me what I can wear. It is not ok for you to lie to me. It is not ok for you force yourself on me. It is not ok for you to push me. It is not ok for you to touch me. It is not ok for you to blame me for your maxed out credit card. It is not ok for you to propose to me to make me happy. It is not ok for you to decide when I will see my family and for how long. It is not ok for you to confine me because you have a licence and I don’t. It is not ok for you to cheat on me whilst talking of starting a family and planning a wedding. None of this is ok!!!!
Why did I let this happen? Why did I let this go on for so long? Why didn’t I stand up and say this is not ok? Why did I feel like I loved you when still you did those things? Why didn’t I ever tell anyone the truth? Why didn’t I open my eyes?
You are an abusing dickhead and I hate you!