Oh boy. I’ve reached to the depths again. I don’t know why. I’m happy. Usually I reach to that place when I am dissatisfied with something in my life. Sure there are things that could be better. My relationship with my BIL and my niece and nephews could be better. Maybe that its. Maybe that is what is causing this negative behavior. I call it that, but is it truly that? I get pleasure out of it. But its devious. It’s exciting. But dangerous. So why do I keep playing the game? Isn’t there something that I can do to stop it? Isn’t there something to take its place?