You know when you r excited to do something , and while doing it you think this is awesome but after its over you cant stop thinking about it and with every minute that passes you just feel worst and worst ?
That’s how i feel right now .
While do in it i didnt quite have time to think , but right after my mind started wandering , and analysing and nothing good came out of that .
I just feel horrible and i wish if i didnt do what i did . i feel less of who i am really.
The timing was wrong . it was very oh very wrong . and now I’m just left here feeling like the worse version of myself , the worse i have ever got .
Today was not a good day . I’m not proud of myself , it was not worth it .
If today happened 2 monthes ago i wouldnt care , but today … With everything that is going … Thats just wrong .
I feel bad and i wish if i can redo this day. If only i didnt leave my bed this morning.
Dissapointed in my self and in how low I’ve got , only to keep people who didnt want me in my life .
I’m not sure if I’m mad at myself or sad or disappointed . i think I’m a mix of yhe three and like always no one to blane but me. My own stupid self .
Why did i get out of bed this morning.