Jani mein jarahi hoon😞

 

aj  kal seebu itnay busy hogay papers Kay saath or hummara koi time barabar be Nahi aata, sach kahun to ab himmat be Nahi rahi mushkil say uthti hoon shayad Seebu say baat hojaye kuch dair par jab mein hoti woh Nahi or jab woh to mein nahien.😢 

Mujhay wasay be ab feel hogya Kay mera time is up, zyada din Nahi last karungy,shayad itna he saath tha unkay saath. Kis mor par hum millay najanay phir kahien…….yeh song or kuch or ek do songs just for us.

Saman nay Mujhay kaha tha bas issi duniya tak he mangna Haseeb ko par nahien mujhay us duniya mein be chayay, Seebu Aakhrat mein be Mujhay ap chayo.😭 Mere duain or ansoo ka koi assar to hoga. Ek bar apko daikhlayti, roz yehi sochti thi shayad mujhay surprise karaingay or ajaingay😭 Kaash Maine apna passport manwaliya hota or bhag aati hospital say siddha apkay pas. 

seebu apko ab neend kayliye be koi tang Nahi karay ga, araamsay jab be neend ayay to ap sojana, ab apko Nahi kahungy thori dair rukjain. Jab be ap kehtay thay mein sojaon hamesha sochti thi Kay mazak karahay hain😢Mujhay an tang karnay kayliye kehray,thori dair tak ajaingay💔💔 Par ap chalay jatay thay,kaash Rok pati apko kuch dair or,par neend mere dushman hamesha jeet jati or apko mujhse layjati. Mere janay Kay bad araamsay sojana no tension.😘

 

Ek ek baat apki yaad aati, ek ek gana jo mjhay send Kia from the very first you sent me raja natwarlal ka tere hokar rahaingay dil zid par chara hai…… Jaani kyun hum Millay? Or itnay Kam time kayliye?!😢Kuch karo na Mujhay roklo na kyun nahi roktay Mujhay?! Koi to raasta hoga na please koshish to karain😭

apnay apni itni private baat jab share ki tab to Mujhay or be zyada pyar aya ap par or trust Kay aap waqye mein sirf mere hain or be maan Kay Mujhay apnay trust kiya to bataya.from your relationships with saman Nadia kanwal to neend mein truck ulta honay ki😉 Love you Seebu, please don’t let me go please🙏🏼please keep me chupalain mjhay. 

Papers apkay beech mein agay or mera be shayad janay ka time be saath he agya. Mere baaton ka bura agar kabhi bura laga to mauf kardaina Mujhay, mein apko kuch day be na saki bas apna dukhra har wakat rona. Kaash mein itni bebas na hoti adhoora sab chor jarahi hoon😭

Kyun aisa hua? Hum kyun nahi mil sakay kyun har cheez jo mere kareeb thi kyun chin gayi kyunnnnn???? Mein kaise apko chorungy mein ek history banjaongy days weeks months years and then forgotton😭 Mera Seebu kissi or ki amanat hai😭   Bohat kuch kehna chati par Nahi likh parahi. Bad mein try karti hoon. Really miss you Jaani hummari late night talks exchanging songs flirting sab kuch yaad aata hai. Wish meine diary consistently likhi hoti from beginning to end to apko janay Kay baad surprise karti😉 

 

seebuuuu abhi tak ap Nahi ayay jaani😢 Mujhay alvida to kehdaytay mein batarahi hoon Nahi hoon theek ajatay to kuch baatain kartay,shayad yeh mauka phirsay millay na Millay😭

Mere say wadha karna ammi papa ka promise karaingay Kay cigarettes weed in sabsay door rahaingay? Mere bad jab jab be kabhi cigarette apkay lips ko touch kiya to samajhna dhuan mere qabar mein say Mujhay jalaraha😢.  Mere baaton ka patani koi Assar hai ya nahi but I just wanted you to stay away from all this,Mujhay bilqul Nahi ab pasand Kay ap in sab mein involve hon, alcohol drugs galeez girls one nighters wali. In one nighters say door rahaingay tab he koi achi apki level ki apko koi millaygi or dua hai apko siwai khushi Kay or kuch nahi ayay.

apsay kabhi jhoot Nahi bola  par jis din meine Tehmas Bhai ko message kiya Mujhay bhohat bura lagga Kay apsay chupaya. I really hope apko bura Nahi lagga kyunkay Mujhay samajh Nahi arahi thi kisko Kahoon Kay mere janay Kay baad apka khayaal rakhain. Ek bar socha Babar ko kahoon par dil Nahi mana, Tehmas Bhai nay apkay operation Kay wakt help ki or Mujhay be updates di to unko kiya.  Bas Seebu samajh Nahi arahi kaise Allah Hafiz karun khauf araha hay Kay wakt Tezi say chalraha or janay ka time bohat kareeb agya.  Seebu patani yeh journal aptak pohanchaygi ya Nahi,apki kaise feelings hongi.

seebu shetaniyaaan raat bhar humara song tha😢Ab kaun karay ga shetaniyaan? 

Apnay phir humari adhoori kahani ko humara song kiya, jiska ek ek lafz asal mein humarayliye hai😢😭💔 

ajain na ek aakhri date par chaltay, I’m happy ap studies ko seriously lay rahay hain par bas ek night mereliye aakhri bar nikaldain please?! Weekends mere thi ap kehtay hain par tab be Nahi alnight hoti bat😭Bas apki neend ajati har bar ya mere problem. Yaad hai hummari woh wali date jahan ap Mujhay hospital say baghakar laygay thay hum ek long drive par gay or phir open air river side par poori raat baatain ki lol hahaha if only real hota,even in imagination it was nice because ap saath thay.

Bohat dil hai awaaz sunnon apki ek last time😢 Love u Seebu kaash apko bata sakti how much I love you.

Ek baat apko Nahi batayi apka perfume apnay ek bar bataya Kay  bl sapphire use kartay,mein apnay sarhanay par wohi lagati jeej say mangwaya tha or apki khusbu mehsoos karti har roz😢 I’m not a psycho promise😉 Mere is harqat par Mujhay mere friend psycho kehti thi😉

seebu I hope the heavens bring us even closer, I will love you in this life and the next.Please don’t let me go,don’t say good bye don’t let this love die.

baat phirsay wahan ajati y am I so selfish,you will have to let me go na😢 You will have to say good bye😭 You will move on in sha ALlah you have a long life ahead, koi to Ho jissay share karaingay.

Seebu agar apki koi beti hue to uska naam seebah rakhna😊😉 tuhafaz daynay wali is ka matlab hai or meray or apkay naam ka combination be hai. 

I know apkayliye it will be incredibly painful ,when i am gone, but ap ek lambi sans layna or apnay naya din ka aghaaz muskarahat say karna Kay mein uppar say apko daikhrahi hongi.so Mr Haseeb Rehman hamesha yaad rakhna that you are the most remarkable handsome caring person and you deserve all the happiness in life. Do well and you’ll get well, hamesha apna khayaal rakhna or wadhay nibhana in gandi cheezon door please😢

jaani Dil kahan tak tere duhai day…….😭 Har ek song mein apkay saath mera connection hai,ek ek word Mujhay apka kaha wa feel hota

Sab yaad hai Mujhay hummaray beech Kay hassi mazak ka wakt ronay dhonay ka wakt even goosebumps jo apnay Mujhay diyay,apni romantic baaton say jo ap khul kar nahi kehtay thay😘😉yahan sab likhun to be Kam hai issiliye sab kuch is engraved in my heart. Thank you for always being there for me,itnay thoray say arsay mein apnay Mujhay bohat so khushi di mere har ek bakwaas Sunni Mujhay himmat di in dawaiyon say apni health say mukabala kiya apki wajah say thank you. apkayliye mein be hamesha Hoon, koi dukh koi bat share karni Ho to yahan likhdayna samjhna mein hoon or asmaan ki taraf daikhna mein sab sunrahi hongi😉

patani apko yeh millaingi be ya Nahi aggar milgayi to please share na karna in mein kuch private bas mere or apkay darmiyaan ki baatain. 

The body dies but the soul remains alive 

kitnay dinnon say is ek page par he thora thora likh rahi himmat nahi kay naya box kholun😢

love you  phirsay aaongy hal e dil likhnay aggar tabbiyat nay ijazat di or zindagi hue to,warna Allahafiz😘 love you Seebu 

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