I slept most of the day away today, I don’t know why, I just felt like shit. All this new year stuff is making me feel worse than I already do. I purged for the first time in months today… why.. because I don’t feel good enough. I don’t feel worth it . I’m in a mess right now. My heads all over the place. But I guess that’s just me! I hurt the ones I love and it makes it 100% worse but I can’t help it, I can’t help feeling like this, drowning in my own thoughts. ‘Cut, eat, purge, eat, purge, cut.’ That’s all I think about. I don’t know how much more I can take!