A little while ago, I wrote about how horrible my bad days had been getting. It got to the point that I had so many consecutive bad days, I was starting to worry myself. I’m usually able to knock myself out of my funks, but for weeks I just couldn’t seem to do it.
Well, I’m happy to announce that black cloud is lifting. I woke up last Friday, a few days after my birthday, and I was just smiling. The sun was shining, the weather was starting to warm up, and I just felt optimistic again. I’m so relieved.. I just want to cry- but a good cry!
My mom got out of the hospital this week. I haven’t really spoken to her much, but I know that she’s now trying to cope with being back in the real world. I know that in order for my mom to be happy and to recover, I have to be happy, too. So, that’s my priority. Happy Kayla, happy life.
On the other hand, and quite surprisingly, my kidney isn’t doing well, but I’m feeling optimistic about it (the old me is reappearing!). On Wednesday I had two CT scans, a normal one and one that they had to inject dye into my veins so they can see my innards better. I absolutely hate the doctor’s office, and I have an irrational fear of needles. Luckily the woman who ran the CT scans got my IV in first try (this NEVER happens, I have really small arms and small veins, so they are constantly poking me up and down my arm, until finally they have to do it in my hand). So that was good!
After my CT scan (the technicians were running super late), I walked across the parking lot to the urologist, and… he was gone! Apparently he had to do a surgery. I got really annoyed with that, but what can you do? I have an appointment today at 4 where we’ll go over my results.. and hopefully we don’t have to do a cystoscopy. I’m SUPER nervous!
Some background info: last August I ended up in the ER at about 3AM, throwing up and crying, I was in so much pain. A kidney stone lodged itself between my left kidney and my urethra, which caused it to back up and become incredibly infected (the doctors were nervous the kidney stone would move and the infection would gush out and enter my bloodstream). I almost lost my kidney! They had to put a stent in me (which required putting me under at 5AM on a Sunday morning) and held me at the hospital for a few days with IV antibitiocs. They tried to use the shockwave treatment to break up the stone – that didn’t work – so they finally just went in through my urethra and lasered it out. Since my last surgery in September, I’ve been getting recurrent UTIs/kidney infections so now they’re just trying to figure out what’s going on (I may have damage to my urethra).
Fingers crossed nothing is wrong! Come on, kidney, you can do this!