I just need to get through one day at a time, 1 hour at a time, 1 minute at a time. That’s all any of us have to do. Sounds like I have some seriously heavy stuff to deal with huh? No. Not really. Just work and life in general. Since I can’t manage my time on my own, I have installed an ap on my computer that will help me. It’s called RescueTime. Tracks everything – websites and applications you spend your time on – including this.
I really don’t feel like I am doing my employer justice. I sometimes feel like I take advantage of their generosity with my flexibility. But I justify it because they pay me so little (again this is me being an asshole, a spoiled suburban wife/mom, there are people who would be truly grateful to be earning what I do). I am so disinterested in the work I do. I need to find something that I can put my best effort into. In fairness to me and my employer. Life is too short.