IT’S BEEN A MONTH SINCE WE STARTED NOT BEING OKAY.
It’s funny because I keep on tracking the days even if I don’t want to.
It’s exactly a month now when you chose not to listen to me.
I didn’t expect that.
Your reaction, your decision to just easily end everything about us- clearly surprised me.
There’s so many questions inside me at that time. But I didn’t brought them up.
You’re breaking up with me anyway ( and it’s not the first you did that).
And what’s the point of asking when I know the reason behind it.
When I know there will be no explanation coming from you.
I do admit I was wrong when I didn’t tell you about the travel.
But that’s not a reason for you to hurt me this way.
My mistake is nothing, compare to those things you did to me, but I chose to stay.
I chose to hold on even though I felt I’m already shattered.
You’re the one I want but you’re the only one who can give me so much pain.
I accepted the shitty situation I have with you even though I didn’t like that because I love you – because I want you.
YOU’RE TOO BLIND TO SEE AND TOO DUMB TO FEEL THAT.