My last Journal was short and lame, Im sorry.
I don’t think anyone will read this, its not like anyone cares. But I like putting it public so people know that I am not ashamed of what has happened to me.
Im going to write out my life (19 years)
- Adopted (Abandoned)
- Sister born, Mom focuses all attention on her
- Dad becomes abusive and broke my wrist
- Preschool Bullied
- Start trying to get attention from parents
- Blurry memories of kindergarten (good year)
- Rivalry with sister begins/ start seeing therapist
- Bullying continues and develop eating disorder
- Sexually assaulted by the electrical man at home
- Hospitalized and diagnosed with anxiety and depression
- Start lying more to friends for attention and approval
- Start acting fake and developing crushes
- Had first crush and was rejected (not good enough– as always)
- Started seeing nutritionist
- Graduated middle school started high school and changed myself, started wearing sluttier clothes, and was involved in a youth group, i was raped, and then met my first love, hospitalized, switched schools 4x, lied, wanted love.
- Drugs, didn’t eat, alcohol. Sent away to treatment.
- in treatment
- in treatment and graduated mid year. relapsed. got back with rapist, got back with first love, met N, had sex with 7 guys, met b, MET MY BIRTHMOM<3, started to find myself
- in love with ben and pregnant and going to school and have a job
Life is turning around!
Pregnancy was a surprise… but … thankful