Called off work today. Side effects kicked in pretty bad yesterday. The usual ones but extremely shaky legs so I know I couldn’t walk. Where is my head right now in all of this. Truth be told here as I usually do in this journal, I am beginning to face the “what if” results of this upcoming scan. Remember when I said I read this was MY DECISION. Liver cancer keeps peering its nasty head up. If it is gone GREAT. But if it is not well what then? Will this new round be directed at it. Is it not meant to leave my broken body? Will it be my downfall? Truth again here. I have written my obituary. Mostly so the husband knows names, spellings, dates, etc. And it’s one less pressure to have to put on him. Am I throwing in the towel. HELL NO. Just facing facts and keeping it real.