Moving on Bitches

Well I text him yesterday. I didn’t get a response but honestly I don’t care. I just feel better that I said what I needed to. I said that I missed him and that I loved him and I wanted to try this again, but I got nothing, just like always. He proved himself to be the jerk he always has been for the past few months. It’s true; you really find out who a person is by how they leave you. I am hurting… so bad. I’m bleeding and my stomach hurts and I hate the feeling of rejection, but in my heart, I’m done. I don’t regret putting myself out there one last time because now I know the truth, now I know that nothing has or will ever change. I am going to let myself hurt, bleed, cry it out, eat that fucking junk food. But I will get over this, I will get through this. This will be another scar but it will be a good lesson for me. I still love him with all my heart and feel like I have finally moved past all the crap we were going through. I knew that by the time that happened it would be too late for us, but I needed time. I couldn’t go back to fixing a relationship that I was still mad at. Now that I have hope for us, I gave it shot, I put myself out there and I was shot down. But that’s okay, because now I don’t have any anger or resentment in my heart. I can move on healthier and better now. I worked through what I had to work through for me. This pain is apart of the grieving and I know I can get through it because I have many times before; not in this particular way, but I will learn to adapt. I am strong and God is with me, and my heart will thank me for letting go. 

One thought on “Moving on Bitches”

  1. Yep. Watch Stardust move on, bitches. Your a strong girl. You WILL get through this. I’m glad to see that you yourself know this. But can I be honest with you? I would eat that fucking junk food whether I was happy, angry, sad, whatever. XD Jokes aside, you got this.

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