As the world revolves

so my 29 year old tells me last night on the phone that she doesn’t see any time memories popping up on my facebook that have her photos or kids photos attached … ( umm maybe because there hasn’t been any of those posted in awhile tagging me.. ) and then this m0orning on my timeline up pops a timeline memory of six years ago I sent out prayer requests that she have a speedy recovery after her car accident where she had a seizure behind the wheel and crashed into a light pole…

how ironic…

I could tell she had a few drinks in her.. and I told her I didn’t think that was a wise decision considering she takes meds for seizures..she hung up on me…

on the other side… my 31 year old daughter and son in law who were living in their car for a week or so before coming to stay in my living room…said it would only be four days.. that was at the end of june… no jobs… no motivation to get any.. their seven children are in the custody of my son in laws mother right now.. and on weekends I pick up the oldest three and go places and do things with them to get them out of the house etc…

I just spent like $400 in school supplies and clothes..im one person.. nobody helps pay my bills.. one income coming into my home..

so my electric bill has gone up  and my water bill has gone up…this morning I was leaving for work.. and my daughter was sleeping on the air mattress my son in law was sleeping on the couch… I felt like slamming doors and shit.. because I don’t understand…

I have to get up every morning and go to work.. to pay for that apartment they are sleeping in … I wish I could stay home and somebody pay my bills for me…

what the hell?

I laugh at people who say yeah  my child will be 18 soon cant wait..

ive doubled that and still have responsibilities towards them and their children…

no wonder im still single.. any guy seeing this scenario would be wise to run far far away…

yet my life continues to be put on hold..

so we need to have a sit down asap and discuss the next process because they seem like they are very comfortable… well hello.. im not…

 

2 thoughts on “As the world revolves”

  1. It’s so difficult trying to decide what to do for your kids. You did the right thing by letting them come to be with you but they also need to show that they are trying to get a job so they can get a place of their own. I sure hope they are at least helping you clean house or cook.
    My cousin moved into a new home 2 years ago and she let her daughter, boyfriend and their kids move into her old home. For the first year they paid their rent. Now for the last year they have paid nothing. She is trying to push them out before the end of the year and sell the house. It’s nice to be able to help our children when they are struggling, but when they start taking advantage of the kindness then something needs to stop.

  2. grannie3 my daughter is a cleaner and sometimes to an ocd level..so I appreciate that… I live in a one bedroom apartment with one bathroom not a lot of room and im trying to have patience.. but its wearing thin… its not like they are teen agers they are 31 years old shes turning 32 next month… I just want them to get their shit together.. seems so hard to ask for…

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