I don’t know how to really go into this.
You see ,i trust to easily,i give to easily,and i break to easily.
I’ve been avoiding relationships for awhile now and people because i feel like i always get used in a way.
Like i am to that point where i can’t take it anymore.
I don’t want to get hurt anymore,i just want to be happy but it seems like i cant just be happy on my own because i’m scared to be alone,i’m scared to vision myself alone because i don’t know how i will react.
Will i get back to the state of mind where i was so beaten down and so depressed.?
Will i be the girl who once again hides behind the smiles and the “i’m okay” and “nothings wrong”.
I feel like i fail myself and that hurts me even more.
i want to be happy and achieve all my goals but i can’t,idk how to.
This just kills me inside i don’t know what to do anymore or how to act anymore.
I’ve tried everything and i even started cutting again sadly i’m just in a state of mind where i feel like i’ll never be good enough for anyone.
I’m just really down right now.