Triggers

So… I trigger sometimes.  I’ve really tried to work on it..  And I’ve gotten a lot better.  But some things… They just do it and I can’t stop it.  Tonight my trigger was someone yelling…. Closely to my face.  Not in my face,  but sitting right next to me. I can handle a raised voice… But an outright yell so close to me… I shut down. Having someone be good hundreds of time what triggers you and having them still do it… Makes you feel like they don’t give a shit they are hurting you… 

Ps… Having someone look at you with disgust when you show even just a small side of the part you usually kept hidden from them… Really fucking sucks… 

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