Monday…..

 so Friday my oldest daughter ( night ) turned 32 years old.. I didn’t do anything for her .. I have already given her a roof and every day living convenience on a free basis the last three months and prior to a month break… it was nine months consistently before that.. who lives for free in this world..  right?

but Saturday I picked up my three oldest grand children and they picked out a tshirt for her.. Friday night.. which was her actual birthday… my son in law took a cake over to his moms ( where all the kids are ) and did the cake for them for her.. they were excited..

then Saturday morning.. my mom had a bad car accident.. totaled her car.. and her husband had to go to the hospital with a bone that smashed through his skin in his wrist area.. and because he is a cancer  patient with an installed medication port in his chest and stents in his heart, they had to transport him elsewhere to do surgery for his wrist…

I drove with my mom a few months ago and her driving was the worst.. riding peoples tails.. and just aggressive driving to me.. and quick stopping.. so un necessary.. and then when she says she hit someone from behind.. I could only imagine.. of course her version of the story was that the guy jumped from another lane into hers and stopped going through a yellow light..

my dad sent me a text and asked if she was ok.. but then responded with “karma” … how childish… and insensitive.. yeah ok I know  she dragged him to court.. I know he is pissed.. but don’t reduce your own self down to karma levels.. cause you are not  immune from it either Mister..

so apparently she is trying to get a rent a car.. but doesn’t have a credit card.. and apparently not in enough in her bank account for the required $200 deposit?

my car isn’t doing great so its not like I could just hop in it and go check on her three and half hours away…    ** sigh **

something I never told my sister or my dad… was that when my sister showed up for their court session.. my mom messaged me of how much of a shame it was that my sister showed up with my dad in support for my dad.. and how she should have been home with her 18 year old son that had a car accident.. and what kind of a mom did that make her…

( mind blown )  karma is very valid… and was on full display here.. but only I saw that comment from her and I spared my sister knowing that she made such a statement.. and denied my dad satisfaction knowing that she made that comment..

but oh look how it back fired… amazing.. and enough to keep me in line with doing the right thing always.. as much as I can .. anyway…

worse case scenario she can start her live in Rv up and drive it over to pick him up from where he is..yes she lives in an Rv .. her choice because she had a home not all that long ago that she sold and bought this Rv and moved back from where she had originally lived.. which is not close to me compared to where she was…. living 45 minutes north of me…

choices I cant compete with…

I talk to myself a lot more these days… making myself realize that there are situations that I cant control and shouldn’t take to heart because I cant control them…

my son in law mentioned to me the other day in passing that  an old friend of mine contacted him to see how he was doing and check on family…   that “old friend” was very special to me at one point in time.. and about a year ago.. we just stopped talking for some strange reason… I never got an explanation… but I was aware he was going through a divorce.. hurt feelings in that process… life changes for him… that came un expected..

some people shut down during life changing moments and I believe that’s what happened to him… but I try not to dwell on it….. just remembering I spent my birthday last year with him.. and then shortly there after we were non existant to each other… and I realize that it was all in the timing im sure.. and now next month is my birthday ..and it brings  “back”… memories…

and now to hear he has re connected with my son in law.. just strikes a feeling or two….

but I wont get lost in the delusional clouds.. facts are facts.. we lost contact.. his choice.. and if I would have meant something to him.. he would have pushed through and included me… or he would have communicated to me out of respect.. people make time for whats important to them.. never be complacent about that fact … know your self worth.. and have self respect above all else…

people make time for what is important to them…

if somebody isn’t putting forth the effort..  believe them… they are showing you what they cant put into words..

believe and leave..

and to think for the past week .. don’t know what it is   or why.. maybe the fact that my birthday is next month and remembering last years birthday.. I don’t know.. just been thinking of him a lot.. and then boom im told that he made contact with my son in law..

now if I could just win the lottery the same way .. mental telepathy.

lol…

Gods blessings to everyone..!!

 

 

 

 

 

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