I’m feeling very un-Goddess like tonight (or should I say this morning since its 3:25 am). I’m over worked, exhausted, stressed out, and in a total slump. My energy is off kilter.
Without saying too much (because I don’t want to trash talk or say something I’ll regret), I recently found out somebody has been lieing to me about a key issue for well over a month. What they did greatly upsets me. Them lieing to me about it, well that crushes me – hence slump.
I’m trying to see this all from an outsiders perspective. If my feelings weren’t on the line here, what would I advice? Then again there’s a huge back story to all this as to why it’s having such a profound effect on me. Ugh. Where do I go up from here?!?!!
I can faintly in the back corner of my mind hear Charlie’s mom singing “Cheer up Charlie”. You know the song. It’s from the original Charlie and The Chocolate Factory.
Maybe tomorrow I’ll charge up Ye old IPOD and go for a drive by myself. Towards the coast is a big no go with all the flooding, but I can always go upstate instead. Finally I have a day off and I just feel like I’m suffocating. This stinks. I’m fixating, aren’t I.
Okay. Step 1. Stop fixating. Mistakes are made. No one is immune. Life goes on. Make life go on. That answers that. Tomorrow I’m busting out of here and going for a ride.
Step 2. Work on step 1 before figuring out where to go from here.