writers block until my lunchbreak happened..lol

omg…

started to write an entry.. didn’t get very far…left work to go home and let doggies out for their afternoon peepee break… Im driving down the road and see an elderly man on his motorized wheelchair slumped over in the hot sun.. no body is stopping… so I whip a u turn and pull over.. I get out and ask him if he is ok.. and he confirms that no he isn’t ok…

I see he is stuck in the dirt with his front wheels of his cart.. I go to my car to get a cup to proceed to dig him out.. not having any luck.. but by this time a few more cars had pulled over.. yayyyyy  now we have a team to make this happen…

he gets assisted out of the chair to make it easier for me to pull his chair free from the dirt.. and I run over my own foot..  good  job im thinking to myself.. ughhhh 

we get him across the street.. he obviously has defecated himself at this point.. now he is vomiting.. ( probably from being out in the beaming sun for who knows  how long… )  and now he begins to vomit.. so we call 911.. mind you.. a couple of cops had driven by and not one stopped to help or inquire on if assistance was needed…

so rescuers  come.. he is having a diabetic shock…

poor guy… 

I then know he is in good hands  and proceed on my way.. I get up to the next light and it turns green and just as I go to proceed thru the light a guy ( about 65 years old bolts thru on his bike.,.. ) yelling at me  “HEYYYY”  .. im the one with the green light.. his street sign  is saying  don’t walk… so he shoots me the bird.. so I yell at him its a green light you fckn asshole… he is still yelling at me  back… wtf..

how does that happen.. and does that wash out my good deed in Gods  eyes  now?  lol…

how did I go from helping someone in extreme need to wanting to run over a righteous bicyclist who was in the wrong clearly… ?????

talk about adrenaline rush..  omg..   im still shaking …. wtf

amazing….  truly

onward…

so my youngest called me this past weekend.. I was so glad for that because the way we ended our last phone call.. she was talking about how she couldn’t afford her drs appointment to renew her seizure medication..and that evening I had a panic attack by overthinking it and worrying about her.. with all that she has had to go through lately…

I wired her the money for the doctors visit  150   and 50 for the medication.. and sure enough she has had a seizure during the time she has been ” borrowing ” seizure meds from her boyfriend.. can you believe two people would end up together in life that both have a seizure disorder????  hers didn’t start until age 19  and I think he pretty much grew up with them in life…

( throwing my hands up to god)

take the wheel jesus..  I don’t have that kind of money just laying around.. but I had to do it.. and my bills will suffer.. but such is life…

wow… 

my youngest daughters  son  has been up in my area  with his dad  for the past year he just turned  ten years old  and I was able to get him Saturday and keep him overnight and he was able to enjoy his other three cousins  ( my grandchildren from my other daughter ) that I pick up every weekend… so we did a sleep over Saturday night…they had such a good time…

I haven’t seen much of him since his dad has had him.. I think in part because the dad  believes I will steal him and take him back to my daughter… but shes  not able to fully be hands on until she can work her medical situation out and hopefully get disability to help her out in some way…  and then maybe things will become a little more stable for her.. she hasn’t been able to keep a job because a seizure will throw her off for a day and a half with a migraine that follows.. what employer can be understanding about that..  they just know that they need a working person consistently… so thus the reason for sporadic employment…  and who wants to take on such a liability at that.. even though we know that discrimination is not allowed.. it still happens whether we like it or not…

what a day… what a life…

I just wanted to say  to  “savedbygrace”  diary writer.. I love your comments that you stop by with… you are so encouraging.. and I have seen other comments that you leave for others  on their diaries that I happen to read…. you are a positive ray of sunshine… ( hugs)

so I need to get onward with my day…

im still stressing over my broken bedroom window.. wondering when my landlord is going to get her letter or call from the home owners association…

as I have gotten older  I have gotten worse at handling pressure.. and stress.. I guess because my mind and body are like enough already….

update on my friend  that I mentioned is an addict..  she is in rehab right now.. even though she has been thru a rehab process before.. she seems very positive on this time around… and I continue to lift her up in spirit.. and tell her that she will have all this behind her sooner than later and will be proud of herself like I am… I hope she stays true to the program and above all to herself..

something to remember each day is that life is a gift.. and we aren’t going to be on this planet forever.. live each day as if its your last.. do good and stay humble… while people set their alarms clock each day to wake them for the next… that’s called “hope”   we all hope for a tomorrow.. so while you have “today”  make it the best “today ” you can…

 

 

3 thoughts on “writers block until my lunchbreak happened..lol”

  1. Your good deed absolutely wasn’t washed away by the asshole on the bike. Your good karma continued because you refrained from hunting him down like some people (*cough*me*cough*) would have done. I do hate the emotional roller coaster, though… when you’re floating in a sea of good vibes and (literally) have to slam on the brakes as some dick jumps out in front of you… ugh.

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