Too much going on. Happy and sad things. Need to put it in writing. My sister’s birthday is tomorrow. Her second birthday since her passing. The first one last year was a very hard day for me. I just need to acknowledge that it will be an emotional day for me, my parents, my siblings, her kids, her husband – and love myself a little more. Send them all healing, love, light. D’s “gotcha day” is Friday. We acknowledge her and S’s (in Feb) day every year with a little something – little gift, an outing of some sort. Mom’s birthday comes right after on Saturday. I want so badly to be there with her again this year and I’m sad that I can’t be. Tomorrow we take W to the vet. Friday evening D goes to her 1st school dance. She will go with her girl friends. Sweet.
Life is so messy. But it is beautifully messy. Everything is a cycle. The cycles never stop. They can’t be stopped. We can only be in the flow with them.