depressed af

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Sorry I haven’t written in around 2 days. I’d like to make the excuse that I was “busy” but thats not nescissarily true. But I have some recent developments. 

Yesterday my dad worked all day, so I asked my friend to hang out and she and her dad came and picked me up. 

Not even three hours after I arrived at my friends house, Hollister Model messages me and asks to hang out. 

Not only did that happen, but when I told him I was a half hour out of town at my friends house, HE OFFERED TO DRIVE ALL THE WAY OUT TO GET ME.

Which really confused me because sometimes he barely texts me and acts like he doesnt care but now all of a sudden he’s driving a half hour out of his way to come get me?

Maybe its just pity. Maybe he just pities me, which sucks. But its the only option I can think of.

I’m not proud to say I ditched my friend to go hang out with Hollister Model, but hey, its life. And I really did miss him, even though we had literally just hung out last weekend for multiple days on end. Although it feels like longer ago that we last hung out. And not just because I think I’m falling in love with him. It just seems like longer.

I am really mad at myself because I acted like a depressed lil bitch the entire time I was at his house. He kept showing me super funny ass videos that I was laughing inside at, but I couldn’t physically make myself laugh at them. 

And then I fell asleep before he did, which is lame af. 

I slept super long, like until 11 am. Then we got up and went somewhere and then they dropped me off at my dads. 

and now I’m home. 

I really hope he wants to hang out again even though I was a boring ass depressed ass bitch. 

 

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