I know I love you. I worry about the stuff only people who love you worry about, like the amount of quality-sleep you get a night and how you react when you’re sad, and whether you’re getting enough vitamins. probably more than anyone else worries, honestly. I just, I know I love you because I freak out when you’re obviously disintegrating yet too stubborn and too “I’m fine” to actually go to the doctor, even though I do that sort of thing myself.
I know I love you because I cannot abandon you, not even when you’re treating me like shit
I know I love you because only people who love you care to say something about your bad behavior instead of saying nothing and just calling you a shithead behind your back.
I know I love you because I want to listen, I really do. I don’t have anywhere to be that can’t wait for a while; I’m here for you and that other thing can wait.
I know I love you because I’m truly concerned with how your life turns out. it’s not just that I want you to “be happy” or attain that vague self-helpy “inner peace” bullshit we’re all supposed to aspire toward, I want you to express yourself and be fulfilled and feel like you’re living life for a good reason, not just passing the time. I want everything to work out for you the way it should and I want to be there for it
and I’m genuinely convinced that I love you because I want to do things for you that I don’t want to do for anyone, ever.
that’s how I know I love you,
and I hope you know it too
so I invite you….
I dare you to love me. I dare you to love me when I am sad; love me when I am mad. I dare you to love me when I drop and break yet another cup. I dare you to love me when I am on a Walking Dead marathon and I only stop for food, during which I will look at the world as if it is out to get me.
I dare you to love me. I dare you to love me even when I cannot focus. I dare you to love me and my grumpy face in the morning. I dare you to love me and my TV obsessions; my itunes obsession; I dare you to love me when I am blasting out full volume and singing along.
I dare you to love me, and when you do, I will love you back with all my heart and my soul; I don’t do anything halfway. I will listen to you and I will be your shoulder to cry on. I will watch your favorite shows with you
I dare you to love me and in return, I will blow your mind. I will make you the best dinner I can make. I will let you win when we play games. I will never play mind games. I will tell you when and why I am annoyed at you.
I will never give up. not ever.
I know I love you so I dare you to love me
and my undeniable imperfections
are you in?