Confessions of an Anonymous Star 7.14

Pic 1: A redneck who wants to model (& f***) and her redneck bf is working overtime to try to shayke my reality. Figured I’d post her, cuz she lets me, and I have her, how I want her, for now…

Pic 2: A thought or dream that translated into thinking or feeling like the lonely was not in vain; however, the skunk that I smelled amid driving around with her on mind, was a valid sign. She was blatantly distrspectful to me today in front of another person. (Of course it was done playfully, but to me, that’s how s*** starts. It manifests in early stages, then it progresses into something that you wish you’d put in check.) This is the first time such has happened with her(though her work friend, whom I believe she sleeps with, has thrown shade already, likely because I refused her advances, and at the end of the day, what both of them have done means as little, as their wage). 

When you choose success, it becomes an excercise of faith, to even try to be serious with another, relationship-wise. As usual, this was a process. Without the beforementionrd realizing it, I empowered her. As usual, she was unaware of how to handle it. 

Today vs Yesyerday, Not really different…

I came to the conclusion that life for me is really bad….but…

Another redneck, who let me get in, informed me that her live in, went out, and purposefully bought a car to compete with mine. Mind you, he’ll need three more to overlap me, but just to know my moves went that deep, is comforting. 

Two underground lesbians (the ones mentioned before) are attracted to me, yet things have shifted into that place where they’re both taking shots interchangeably…It’s interesting because I’m not really attracted to them in any way, form, or fashion. I feel like there’s something I need to do to address it, but then again, it doesn’t really deserve attention.  

I still have not received any extra help in regards to food or investments opportunities(this vegan organic s*** is mesmerizing to an accountant & business manager), and based on what I keep seeing, I don’t really care to (my prayers and affirmations are going unanswered) but…I kinda don’t have a choice at this point…

A blonde via the gym (one of many I intersect daily) is going out of her way to try to make me jealous. It’s actually humorous at this point. I just don’t return her replies, and she majickly shows up when I’m there. She’s actually in  some ways a tad hot. Just her talking to some guys, makes their day. I do nothing, and she follows me….

There’s this other guy who I’m sure is hiding his girl away from me, but I truly, don’t care. I just think it’s amazing how intense life is taking my plights to live as I choose. Life really hates me…*laugh* 

I read these bullshit affirmations. Do basically nothing that I really want, except see long term goals evolve so slowly that it does n’t seem like it’s occurring. 

That’s my life…Out of respect 4 self, I’m stopping here…and if if things don’t get better today, I’ll post some work outside of trix that’ve befallen me…

 

 

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