I admit that I am naturally more guarded than most people. I know what it is like to go to bed thinking about one person and wishing they felt the same way. I know what it’s like to stare at your phone wondering whether or not you’ll hear from that one person. I know what it’s like to go to bed thinking about one person and wishing they felt the same way. I know what it’s like to find any excuse just to talk to them and to almost pathetically try and keep them in your life because you care and you hope they will one day too. I know what it’s like to look someone and think they are perfect, like suddenly your life makes sense because they are a part of it. but I also know what it’s like to have the best intentions yet be taken advantage of and be taken for granted. I know what it’s like to fight to stay in someone’s life and just how much it hurts when they aren’t choosing you. you stay busy to keep your mind off it hoping someone can fill the void. the blow of rejection hurts like hell when the love of your life “isn’t ready” and then moves on to date someone else.
I choose to wear my heart on my sleeve. virtually, everyone has labels hanging over them. I would like to remove them, but the truth is, we are all larger than the labels people give us to confine and define us. my soul speaks through images, words, and art; every shutter captures another piece of the soul, converting fragments of my life into memories. I draw lines to cross and wear clothes to take off. I live with friction in my bed and fantasies in my head. I am living an eternal fairytale where everything is coated in love, love and more love. I am flashy, I am deep, and my heart is the centerfold. passion is essential in my life. too many people are simply living but very few are alive. forget about the plastics and the superficial. I want classy, I want trashy. give me anything that breathes with conviction: thinkers, lovers and leaders; people who turn love into paintings, people who turn tears into sonnets, people afraid of life but never afraid to live.