I do need go to see psycologist (?)
Every day is a self sabotage tour in my life. I just keep thinking about how messy and ordinary I am and do nothing to change it (even tough i have a way out – and I know that)
But I keep doing it
This is the kind of thing that I only stop doing when i am in a really really dark place, but I dont want to get there to recover.
Mental health, i miss u so fuckin much