If you only knew
what I’ve been too scared to tell you,
what would you do?
If I were much braver for what’s painfully true,
would you say our budding friendship is through?
Such an old familiar fear
with the same old cliche here
How would you feel
once you found out this is real?
Would you find me a complete disgrace?
I don’t feel so brave
I’ve built an invisible wall of silence
For now, this still remains unspoken
even with the support from friends
who keep saying I should take this chance
Will this be another love gone unrequited
that leaves my mind in the same old riot
or the start of a romance
despite the unlikely chance?
(Jakarta, 9/7/2017 – 8:15 pm)