I WISH I WAS NEVER FUCKING BORN

Everything i fucking go near is ruined. . .everything i feel like my world is spinning and dying all around me and here i am still touching things like the world is mine i break everything including myself I’m sorry mom i’m not good enough and i’m sorry you feel like i’m never going to be good enough and that i’m a bad daughter because you know what. . .I am i hate myself why shouldn’t the world hate me too thats just how it works I’m not going to live past the 10th grade and thinking that is really stupid i fuck up everything including my life i’m not a stoner what am i doing but you know what. . FUCK IT 
I like weed. . .And?
I smoke weed. even better
And i feel good when high i feel numb and happy and laughing i’m not addicted i just like the feeling but i’m fucking everything hahaha What have i become my mom would kill me before  i ever have the chance to kill myself. . .Thats fine with me maybe then i would feel less guilty for letting everyone down 
I disappoint everyone, everyone is secretly plotting against me i know it i feel it they all hate me on the inside and when you disappoint everyone all the time its hard not to want to die i’m constantly feeling shameful for everything i do good or bad i find the flaw. . .everything suckssssss including me. i suck My mom hates me My family hates me. . My bestfriend probably hates me a lot more than i think I hate myself though out of all of them i hate myself the most i’m an ugly probably fat black girl that has nothing to look forward to then an unsuccessful life surrounded by people she hated until the day she died

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