When I met Mr Buttons I had an overwhelming sence of home. Our hearts matched. They fit. But the one thing that separates us is that he finds it impossible to be faithful to one person. Even friendship is hard for him. Yes.. we have a connection like no other.. but a devide like no other..i have to let go. I had an idea of him that I fell so in love with.. but it was only an idea. The reality is that i will not have anyone at my side when I leave this world. I will not begin to look again…i looked for 43 years.. I’m tired now. I will go peacefully… alone.