As the days go by, the more I think that no one really cares about anyone else unless it’s relevant to them. I am tired and it is so dark that I cannot see any light at the end of the tunnel. How does one be happy and “awake”? I see and feel all the terribleness this world has to offer and no matter how I try, I can’t ignore it. Life is not what I once thought it was when I was 20 and green around the ears. I thought I could do anything.