I am so lonely without Ian. We felt so perfect together. We have so much in common but he doesn’t want me. I guess I’m just to fat, ugly and repulsive for any man to want. I didn’t even realize how lonely I was until I spent last week with Ian. He’s back on AFF as we speak looking for someone new. I want him back so bad I can’t see straight but he doesn’t want me. I wish I could find a good looking man, a tall man, who wants to be with me and me alone. Even Wesley cheated on me. I guess I’m just too repulsive for any man to want me.