Messed Up Mind

Saturday midmorning….

listening to some music from Youtube…

alone…

everyone is out with their all sorts of thing….

i have a lot of time to think about me and my life…

My mind is blank, dark, cold and lost.

Into the deep I go….

I may look okay or normal as  you put it there but I’m not….

My life is miserable, lonely and blue

I just hope everything disappears out of thin air…

I want to go some place far from here… a place where no one knows me

A place where there’s quite and peace, tranquil and serene…

Is there such place?

Death perhalps

or some place really really far….

Can I do that…run and disappear?

without a trace…

without a clue…

no one will ever find me…

or maybe they will not look for me…

My life is just like one hell of a movie the only difference is I don’t have a chance to edit it, rewind or even fast forward it.

it will just go as it is….

tired of having this…

some of them said I need help….I have to go to church and pray to calm my spirit…. but do I still have….

Every time I cry out within myself no one listens?

Or me who doesn’t listens…

kinda messed up huh…

waiting for things to turn up….

I want this all to stop

I need a break….

I need to be in some place I dunno….

I am just really really tired… of me

 

2 thoughts on “Messed Up Mind”

  1. “If any man is in Christ Jesus, he is a new creation; the old things have passed away, behold all things are made new.” When you cry out, GOD HEARS! Believe me, please. I am here typing this with an aching back, wanting to encourage you, Blackfairy. Do you know Jesus? As your Lord and Savior? if not, ask Him to be that for you. Your life will become an adventure shared with Him always by your side, guiding you. When you die, you will go to the far, far place you long for. It’s called Heaven. It is your real Home. I hope you are taking this in, because I’m in a lot of pain typing. God bless you, and I love you.

Leave a Comment:

SCROLL TO TOP