[246] ~*Tue – 04/17/18*~

[6:19 pm]

I feel quite overwhelmed right now. I’m hot, sweating, coughing, blowing my nose and I’m even shaking. I need to take a break. For the past hour and a half I’ve been working like crazy. I started cleaning the suggies cage and their toys which takes about an hour or so. I’ve put away the dishes that were in the dishwasher and filled it back up. Cleaned around the kitchen and put away a basket of clothes.

I just feel mad cause I’m always doing everything. My one day off and I’m still working my ass off when hub has three days off and all he does is sit in front of his PC. There is just too much to do right now with no time. I still have a load of laundry in the washer that needs to be put in the dryer but the suggies toys are currently in the dryer. I still have another load of laundry to do but can’t at the moment cause there’s one sitting in the washer already. I still have to put back together the cage in a few hours when the toys are dry and I really want to put away all the laundry tonight so I don’t get behind on that.

Hub was up when I started cleaning the suggies cage. When he saw I was cleaning it, he decided to wash the two suggies kitchens and some of the dishes I had left behind that doesn’t go in the dishwasher. That was very nice of him but I thought he was gonna help more. After doing that, he went to bed without a word. Bleh! I sometime really wish we’d change life so I could just chill and him do all the work.

I know I’m currently doing too much and my body is stressing cause I’ve been having to go to the bathroom a lot today. I’m meant to go to the Casino tonight and I honestly don’t even want to go. I don’t want to get dress and drive. This is just how badly I feel right now. It’s the Casino!! I will still go cause I have three cards to play. Hopefully it will give me a chance to relax a bit. I’m just not sure at what time I’ll be going cause like I said, I still have a few things to get done.

So yea, I ended up taking my pill at like 1 am last night but I had already fallen asleep before that. I had put my book away to rest a few minutes but like always, I felt asleep. I still got out of bed at 3 pm today. I could of gotten out before that but I just didn’t wanted to get out of bed cause I knew what today meant, cleaning the suggies cage. I’m getting really fed up with it and every time it’s time to clean it, I tell myself I want to give them away. They are cute but it’s not like we spend any time with them so why do we even have them? I just really don’t know what I want to do with them. I’m always fine until I need to make their food or clean their cage cause I feel like it’s too much and I don’t get any help with it. My husband is just like a kid, he wants all kind of animal but he just doesn’t take care of them, I’m always the one taking care of them. I adore animals as well so I always end up saying yes but this has to be the end of it. No more! Especially is me being “sick” right now is really due to my allergies. As hard as it is to say, once we get done with what we have, no more. I just really don’t want to lose my cats but I know they are aging so that will be happening in a few years but after that, I need to say no, no more animals. It’s breaking my heart just to talk about it. My cat is currently cuddling and I love her so much.

Last night I totally forgot to mention that I had that one client that always cancels which I had bought a belt extension for cause sometimes she couldn’t buckle herself. I’ve been waiting since I got the extension to see her and what happens?! She didn’t even needed it today. She buckled herself with no trouble. Bleh! I still told her about it and she was glad I had gotten one, just in case. I’m still glad I got it as I had gotten it for another client that always asks me to buckle her as she can’t find the buckle but she didn’t really understand the concept of the extension so I still had to buckle her up. At least I didn’t have to “touch her ass” to buckle her so it still helps. I just wonder if I should of gotten just the extra buckle instead of the whole extension thing. I might order just the buckle to see and I know a few people that could actually use the extension so I wouldn’t have any problem getting rid of it if needed. I’ll think about it.

I’ve also just received the new picture for my big bro’s tombstone. I think it’s okay?! I just sent the picture to mom but I already know she’s gonna say it’s okay cause she was okay with the other one. I haven’t agreed to it yet, I want to talk to mom first but I think this will be okay. It needs to be okay or else he never will have one cause I’m too picky and nothing is ever perfect enough.

Anyways, I think I’ve calmed down now so I will be watching a show or two while playing my farming game and then we shall see where the evening brings me.




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