I was healthy for about 10% of my life. 14-18 and not just because of my age but because I played tennis, every single day, sometimes 2 or 3 times a day. I got driven by my parents for the first 2 or 3 years of that, and I took it for granted.
I can get back there, 25 lbs of fat lost, 5 lbs of muscle gained a lean 155. Not sure which is holding me back more, lazyiness or environment. See bipolar meds can make you gain wait, bad weight, visceral fat and bloat you with excess water. I work a desk job, cannot get away from it but every once and a while I am reminded of what it would be like to work at a tennis tournament, or for the atp, the nhl, ahl. Something to make me happy something to be proud of.
To be a director, to change fields, I need this weight loss in q1 to work. I have never been more sure, or more scared that I need something to succeed. During school, during an uptick at work and in my relationship.
I need it to work, and it will work.