I expect the worst from every person on this earth. I do not think positively. I think this way because that way I am prepared for the worst when it happens and I am not caught off guard when it happens. This is a safe way for me to think or a safe way to go through my everyday life.
I have basically just given up. I do not care what happens in my life. I do not have anything that I should live for. Hilary is working her way to being my reason to live. It is not fair for her for me to put that on her. I am not happy but I am not sad. I do not hurt physically but I do not have many physical emotions either. I am just me I guess.