Tonight, I am kind of scared. I have decided to put myself on alert. Maybe this lesbian relationship I am in is not as rock solid as I would like to think. I will not under any circumstances take Hilary back if she brakes up with me. I will not put myself into that kind of relationship. I got into a lesbian relationship because I thought that it would be a safer relationship then a straight relationship. Hilary still loves Amy. I might just be on a rebound relationship. I do not know where this relationship is going to end up. Even if it turns bad, I will be 100% faithful and true to Hilary even if I do not get it in return. Hilary may be confused about what she wants, I get that, but, I do not deserve to be hurt because she is confused.