It’s 10:18 pm as I write this. Is there anyone out there who will please just listen to me I me, I need to talk please?
I already talked to PS but I am still very upset and shaken over this.
I am staying and our little girl dog, during the day because I am hurting and PS doesn’t want me to be alone in case I was in a lot of pain, everyone we know our neighbors are working, some are older people who are not in good health and friends who has little ones and I mean babies and small children and I don’t want to be a bother to any one so I stayed with my parents during the day.
And I helped mom she tells me not to but she is in ill health nothing serious thank goodness arthritis and a narrow spine possible and it makes her not feel well of course I love dad and he works he cleans the yard and mows etc but he wont do anything inside to much and I help mom when my arm was well, cleaning, errands etc for her well that slowed down since my arm and even stopped and dad, well he’s not happy it’s an in convinence for him
and he is very unhappy for with me, he will turn on the caring charm but he gets down right mean and cruel at times with it.
We love him but he is like his father, watches and picks and has the tongue of his mother sharp and brutal and mean!
He was raised by them until his mom was in a car accident when he was 5 and his mom was in and out of the hospital and he was taken care of by different relatives their all weird.
This is only part of the problems every since I was 5 or 6 as I remember it when didn’t get along that’s far back as I can remember I am sure we never got along before that. Really sad.
What happen mom and I did some work this guy Pat I told you about is coming over to help with an old pc my parents got fixed and still doesn’t work and he came over to get dad they went to get our car it needed some repairs and he Pat needed to us the bath room and this shouldn’t but it caused some problems we were notified at the last moment and I was so aggervated I was trying hard not to show it, because with him you don’t show aggervation, sadness, hurt etc and I can only use the one arm our older dog used the bathroom and it didn’t smell good he was complaining about that and I was trying to get incents I went in one of the bedrooms I couldn’t find my little one he was yelling to burn incents and I was saying I couldn’t find my little one that’s where the explosion begin, he was saying I was throwing things I politely said I wasn’t _ and I don’t know how it all begin mom was taking a late shower/ washed her hair and I finally found her she was fine safely under the bed and I was trying to get ready I had a dog fence it fell and I forgot why I had the flash light and I dropped it he started screaming and yelling at me! I was trying to explain I wasn’t doing anything he was getting furious saying get out of his face! And we have to get away from one another, I said I don’t want to he told me to SHUT THE F UP and go in my room and I am embarrassing him, on and on said were going to have to have a talk after Pat left! I said fine I wanted to! He was just in a bad mood! I don’t know what happen I have a bad temper I know and admit it, I am embarrassed and working on it I hate it! He’s explosive and more moody then I am and more then that happen but it’s to painful to happen, he didn’t and never would hit me he was just crazy mad and no I was not slamming things down.
He left with Pat and I told mom what happen and wish I didn’t she was furious at him!
She wont leave him they loves one another but he is getting weirder!
And she said she wished she had a small place her and her fur, feathered friends could go to not divorce just go and be alone at.
He called and I told him I don’t want to be away from them he said he never would let that happen and wouldn’t let us.
He loves and says things out of anger he doesn’t mean when he is angry! He needs to work on it badly and needs some kind of help.
I am so aggervated my arm hurts and I am in major pain, pain pills seem to stop helping.
Supouse to start raining this Thurs_ Friday_ Saturday and Sunday and I wont be on these days if it does. Please, don’t worry I’ll be fine with dad, my arm everything and will be back.
Be safe, Take care and see you tomorrow unless starts raining if do have a safe, fun and wonderful weekend!
Have a beautiful day and night,