How do you not love someone that you have been in love with for as long as you can remember. I have tried so hard not to feel anything for him but I can’t. The most I have ever been able to do push everything to the back and pretend nothings there. And well it only last so long. He’s the one person I’ve ever told everything to. Who I trust more then anyone. But its like ever chance we have ever had never works. I wish I could explain how last summer made me feel how he made me feel. He made me stronger and confident. Things I had lost. I wasn’t afraid to make the choose I needed to in my life then. Choose I don’t think I could have made without him. Last summer I finally felt things I hadn’t felt since high school. He made feel alive again, happy and wanted. And most of all loved. The night by the lake when we kissed, I think of so much. Its one of two memories that stands out the most from last summer. I never expected it to ever happen. I don’t even know how to explain how I felt that night. It was a moment I didn’t want to end. Like the moments when he would say he loved me.