Let It Flow

This phrase could simply mean the river and the lake have their own steady pattern. There’s nothing stopping them. No matter how many logs and rocks get in the water’s path, it continues to push through, like the sun shines through the clouds. This could also connect with anyone on Earth, whether it is a stranger, a friend, a family member, or even me. I’ve found that in my 15 years of living, that there can be many obstacles in life, such as loss, family troubles, relationship issues, or even the battles inside your own head.

I remember whenever I had to switch schools for the first time. I had to leave all I had known and grown up with. Meeting new people wasn’t my thing, and neither was leaving the ones I knew my whole life.

I was only just going into 7th grade, so it was very rough on me, even if I didn’t let that show. I ended up fitting into this new school very well. It had seemed that everyone was at least consent with me. I didn’t have to worry about being me, either. People loved me for who I was, and I couldn’t have asked for any better. I knew that during the move, I’d have to adapt to my new surroundings, my new home, my new teachers, my new friends, and my new self.

This had worked, until I had to go into high school two years later. At first, I felt ecstatic about this change. I knew how to meet new people at this point, to be myself, to not let things get to me. The first half of the year went amazing, but a few mistakes changed all of that. The people that were once on my side had turned the other way. The ones that were still turned my way, were the ones, I realized, that were really worth it. The ones that had torn me down, talked rumors about me, and gave me dirty looks sadly ended up getting to me. I fell down into this deep hole of torture inside my own head. I hadn’t noticed that it was all just me, until I took a step back and looked at the whole situation. I was the one letting it get to me, letting it tear me down, and letting it take who I was. I knew I had to change. I had to go back to who I was; who I was meant to be all along.

One day I went into school, with a big smile on my face, telling my best friend, “I’m not going to let it bother me anymore.” Of course a few words still got on my nerves a bit, but overall, there was a big change in me. I started to like school. I liked seeing the friends that mattered, the ones that cared. I liked talking to my teachers, because they were helping me out academically, and I knew I also needed some education, rather than drama, in my life.

A few bumps in the roads, and a bit of crying to sleep, really got me through a lot. I finished freshman year. My family was suddenly starting to see a difference in who I had become. It made me realize that there is hope, and that I just had to go with my gut, or in better words, with the flow.

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