I take pain pills a lot.
I tell myself it’s because of the headache I have.
Or sometimes because of the headache I had ten minutes ago.
“What if it comes back?”
I ask myself.
So I down another two pills.
I know the real reason why I take the pills.
I just hate to admit it to myself.
“It’s just the headache”
“Just the toothache”
But deep down I know why I take the pills.
I take them in hope that maybe one day
They’ll make the real pain go away.
Not the pain in my head
Or the pain my tooth
But the pain in my heart
And my soul.