Today is one of those days that I really wish I was in NC. Don’t get me wrong, I love VA. This has been my home my entire life and I have said on more than one occasion that I couldn’t imagine living any other place. That is changing more and more every day, though. There seems to be more reasons to move these days than to stay. I have made my share of mistakes in the past and there seems to be someone around every corner around here that is more than willing to remind me of them. Then, there is B. I have to come to terms with the fact that I love him. I keep trying to control how I feel and how I show it. That is where this journal comes in to play. I worry him to death with texts telling him how I feel and justwanting to talk to him. Being a state away, that is really my only connection to him. I am afraid I am going to get on his nerves and push him away. So, I will write here. My thoughts, feelings, and what I want to say to him. It gets it off of my mind. We shall see. So follow me on the journey of loving him from a distance.