Above: Issys daddy as a pre-teen, and his sister, my 2nd daughter who now lives in Wales with her hubby!
All I need to do is concentrate on today. The past has passed.
I can’t change it or re-arrange it; and neither can you, so I’d say;
“Lets leave it alone, eh??”
Today, has enough problems and challenges to occupy
my/our attention without looking backward at something
which is dead, or even forward to something which does
not yet exist. Whether we try to look back or forward, we
will ONLY ever see today. Everything else is imagined!!
Is this why I/we write diaries?? So that we can have witnesses
of whatever has transpired in our days, nights, lives, times????
For my part, I write my diaries for my mokopuna, (grandchildren,)
whether that’s just Issy or perhaps Dylan will have other children:
I can’t say, all I know is that One day, on planet ‘earth,’ I will meet
and hug this particular mokopuna of mine. No, I’m not pining for
the moon! I was given visions/ dreams in the night, of this child
TWO years before she was born! Then, confirmation of her very
existence came to me, two years after she was born! It was also
the news which brought reconcilliation between the daughter in
Wales and myself.
My little Issy was already purposed to be a major blessing to her
granmare, even though she doesn’t know me yet! I hope that one
day, Summer, (Issy’s mummy,) will remember that I am Issy’s other
granma, and get in touch with me!
Till then, I can wait! (I don’t wait with just Hope! I also wait with
confidence that,” He who has begun a ‘good thing’ in ME, will
complete it!” … “and He will, He will!! clap,clap,clap!!”