October 16th, 2013

You won’t leave my mind. I’m not complaining, but you’re honestly starting to become my every thought. You’re the first thing that comes to my mind when I open my eyes in the morning, and also the last thing when I start to fall asleep at night. Lately I’ve been feeling us getting so much closer to each other and I love it so much. The eye contact we make, although through Skype, makes me smile both inside and out. Of course it’d be better if it were in person, but I guess it will have to do for now. Plus, even though its on Skype, it still gives me chills and butterflies all at the same time. I’ve never found someone who means as much to me as you. Whenever you’re upset, I can feel my mood go downhill, and whenever you’re hyper or happy, your energy somehow becomes mine. I love the way we pick at each other, because then it turns into complete laughter which I adore. I love hearing you laugh and seeing you smile, because all I want for you is to be happy, and I am honestly so glad that you’re letting me do that for you. The other night during our exercise session, I don’t know what it was, but I fell in love with you all over again. Seeing you smile during it probably topped it off. I’ve never smiled either until you, (on Skype of course), but I love how you mean so much to me that I actually do. I still can’t stop smiling to myself whenever I think about how you’ve never smiled with anyone but me before. Hey, that can be a ‘first’ that you had with me. 🙂 You said that I bring out the best in you, well you do the same for me. In the past with guys, we would argue and also have good times, but with you, the times are all great which just makes you 10x better. When we disagree on something, my heart sinks, but I know neither of us are gonna change our opinion, which I like, because I don’t want to take away something you believe in and stand up for. I love how we can just drop the subject and move on with how we were before. Whenever I get a text message, I get so happy thinking that it is from you, and then it’s not, and it’s like a complete disappointment. /: I just want you to feel better already, but I love how we are strong enough to not see each other every day. It actually might pay off though, considering we are basically dying to be with the other, so that when we are together, the wait will be worth it. I cannot wait to finally hold each other again, and feel you and be with you. I am honestly so excited for the day that you can make it to school, so that we can finally hug and kiss like I’ve been wanting to do for the past 1-2 weeks. You’re absolutely amazing Kyle, and all I can ask for you to do is stay for me. I can’t afford to lose someone again, especially you, considering you’ve been my everything lately. I love you so much. I will try to text you during gym. I have a block of it today, and if you’re sleeping, then I’ll just text you at lunch. I hope you’ll feel okay once you wake up. I love you, don’t forget that. 🙂 <3 Muah :*

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  1. Hi, I saw that you have written a lot of entries on this site. I’m still kinda new, so nice to meet you!

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