Overall today was a great day i woke up after falling for my drug again :/ its soo good when its there but as soon as ita gone…… You just feel absolutley horrible like seriously you feel like absolute crap like your world of power is gone your and your tied to an invisible chain of slavery it feels absolutely horrible. but that is all ending today. Today i am starting my journy to recovery in hopes that i will no longer be ashamed of any of my actions. From this day forward i will mark the days until 365 days have passed and by that time i will be able to drop the count and just forget. But for now i will be keeping these journals as a reminder of my past actions and the greuling pain they have caused in my life.
For with God nothing is impossible
end of thoughts day 1