Ever heard that a guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other? That’s what happened to me and M. I met him first at campus in September 2010. He was so nice to me and soon we became friends. At that time, he already had a girlfriend. And i was in a toxic relationship. M always got my back. He taught me a lot about boy and relationship things. I was like a little sister to him. As time passed by.. I grew more and more dependent upon him.
In 2011 i broke up with my ex. I still remember the nights that i cried, but i don’t remember the pains. M fixed me, cured me, and helped me to move on. We talked about anything, anytime, anywhere. Each time i listened to him, i learned something new. I’ve learned to trust in his instincts.
We traveled far along the path of friendship. Until somewhere along our path, perhaps where the heights were making me dizzy with joy. I simply lost my balance and fell. I knew this is something he never intended.. But i fell in love with him. I knew it wasn’t right because he was still in a relationship with someone. I didn’t want to be a bitch who steal boyfriend.
One night in 2012 he told me he just broke up. And we became closer and closer. Until much of my life was centered around the times we spent together. Few months later, we kissed and agreed to be friends with benefits. But soon things became complicated. I wanted a relationship.. He didn’t like the idea of us become a couple. He said relationship is not his priority at the moment. He was good with his words, and i was good to believe them.
I love him, and that’s all that mattered. I didn’t bring the conversation about where-are-we-going or what-are-we anymore. Until one day he said to me on the phone, “i just told our friends that we’re in a relationship”. Yeah, finally…
It have been almost a year since we officially dating now. I always think M is a good boyfriend, and we’ll be great together. That’s right.. We rarely fight, we complete each other. He changed my life, my perception, even my attitude for the better. I’m not blinded by my love, though, and know he is not perfect. But his life has touched mine. I’m not the same girl i was three years ago. I will never be that girl again. In learning to love him, i discovered i’ve never loved before. I confused lust with love, intimacy with affection. M changed that, as he have changed so much else.
I do hope i can settle down one day, cause relationship will never be enough.. Hopefully we were made for each other. Born to become bestfriends and lovers. But no one knows what the future holds.. Meanwhile, i’m just gonna fasten my seatbelt and enjoy the seconds of it.