Over the past week of writing and starting to keep this journal I have learned that my mind seems to be a place of untold mystery. I see it somewhat like the rubbish and shopping trolleys that get thrown to the bottom of rivers and lakes most of it just useless scrap now, but if you look hard enough and dive deep enough small priceless treasures can be found?
Sometimes I believe it’s possible to know something but not really know it until you have to go through it again! It’s like we know that you can’t make someone love you, no matter how much you like them, but when it happens to us part of us still wants to try! It’s like something can’t be truly learnt, until you have experienced it in within your own reality!
1 Corinthians 10:13 says:
”No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; he’ll never let you be pushed past your limit; he’ll always be there to help you come through it”.
True as this may be, when we face toughest times of our lives I think it would be true to say (if you asked any honest person that is) that we have all doubted, doubted there is a God, doubted he will come through for us, question why he has let this happen?
BUT, having said all this God or no God, Depression or no Depression, Symptoms of varying other conditions or not, I have made a choice. And that choice was to live in happiness and enjoy the life I have been blessed with. But to also remain true to myself, take every opportunity and experience I get offered, while living in peace and harmony with others, to honour god in my actions and words, and help/support those that need it.
Learning to trust in and wait on God can be the hardest thing as I have learnt recently, but from my past experiences I think we do have to believe that he can do it. Especially as putting to much faith in other humans can only lead to disappointment, I mean who much can we really expect from follow humans…we killed the one perfect one we where given!? I think perhaps in a round about way this was what God was trying to teach me…to put my faith in him not others!!…
”It is better to take refuge in the Lord, than to trust in humans”.
Okay, so anyway tonight my friends are picking me up at 5 ‘o’clock and I have no idea what we are doing she said it was a surprise, i’m really hoping it’s going to be something fun, and not something cringy and lame. I know your supposed to trust your friends right? WRONG!! I should be trusting in God that he is speaking through them and has shown them what to do! Bingo, God really is awesome!! All this time I guess I have just been putting my faith in the wrong people!
Arrrgghh, poop, I hate surprises but I love them!…I have trawled the internet trying to work out what kind of magical mystery adventure they are taking me on tonight but I literally have no idea…I give up! =/ I am charging up my camera battery now so I can take pictures if it’s something awesome! =)It’s nice to feel like my friends are thinking about me for once though!
Just been cruising around face book wasting time away before I get ready…gotta love lazy mornings/afternoons, and stumbled across a few people from my past via mutual friends, God i’m glad God wants the best for me because if he didn’t then some of those people might still be in my life, and that makes me feel a little bit icky!! Some people definitely belong in the past, and im happy for them to stay there! But we should be sound in mind toward those people within our life or past and not feel hate toward them but sympathy that they made a poor judgement or choice because they don’t know of God’s will for them. But, nothing we can’t handle people I guess we should just keep that in mind because if God thinks we can handle it…who are we to argue???