My baby girl will be her in about 3 months. I’m so excited to be a mother, yet so scared. I lay at night thinking over what it’s going to be like. Will I be a good mother? Will I raise her right? What if my boyfriend and I split up because we can’t handle the stress together? What if she grows up to be a terrible person? Sometimes I think so much I make myself really sad..this is one of those nights.
I turn to my boyfriend for support but he can only help so much. Sometimes I feel like he really isn’t here next to me. Like physically he is here, but he is really out in the world exploring and having adventures without me. Every time I get down like this he reassures me. Telling me that we’ll do great. That we’ll be great parents. I just sit here and think…what if we’re not?