Just had discovered that life is amazing
just had found the bright spot that came into your dark, empty room
just knew life does worth it.
Good days flies so fast that we even can not notice how fast it went by.
When you find the hope and happiness where there was not any
and you try to hold on it so hard
feeling scared and anxious to loss it , but what do you know?
All of sudden it just disappeared .
you go back to your darkness loneliness
which had become even darker and emptier.
you forget all of your problems , but losing that HOPE is your biggest and only worries now.
All what you can do now is to suffer because you can not let it GO .
You smoke , drink, listen to LET HER GO and go over old pictures
that give you that feeling when you want to cry and laugh
it sends you to the wild grift mode
Nothing is harder then losing somebody who you loved even more then yourself
it herds so much when you know that they do not have the same feelings toward you.
Even though one day in the past you thought they did so.
You try so hard, you offer all of your focus and time to just get over them
but you know that you are still deeply in love and you are willing to do anything for them
even if that includes your own live.
You always had been so so nice to them
have done and still do whatever that would make then smile
you even got to that point when you lose your dignity which has been always something very importuned to you
and you start wondering WHY THE HALL AM I DOING THIS?
However, there is something you do not learn until you lose them
YOU CAN NEVER FOREC PEOPEL TO LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO.
You know that you have to move on and get over them
It is the right thing to do
not because you want to , but because you have to .
Unfortuationly, you will find yourself surrounded and overthinking of them all the time
Yes, it is not that easy
it so hard to lose happiness after experiencing it and knowing how it feels.
Then you just sit there and HOPE to get the chance to experience it again .
Well, at least you still have hope .