Dear diary, I cant feel anymore. I’m to sad to do the things I used to enjoy. I’m to weak to fight but to strong to cry….I’m numb.
When I try laughing it hurts inside. When I try crying tears wont come out… I want to feel something… anything. I want to know I am alive and here.
I haven’t been a good friend lately …I have let allot of people down and I’m sorry…so sorry.
It’s not my fault, well maybe I could have done more…. am I making excuses for myself ? I don’t know…I just don’t know anymore.
I can’t think straight… my mind is always in a fog…. where to go from here ? I have no clue.
Taking it one day at a time has never worked out for me but I will try.
should I focus on getting better ? or just try getting used to the new me?
Everyday is another opportunity. I want to get better, I think I can…… I think I will.
I might be ok…. just not today.