Dear diary , I sometimes have trouble holding back my tears when I talk to certain people. They know that I am week and they use my weakness to manipulate me. I need to get stronger and smarter. I can’t let people take advantage of me anymore…They know what they have done to me but they are to ashamed to admit it. It’s not fair I just want an apology. Is that to much to ask? They expect me to be perfect even though they did everything in their power to try an ruin me. Now they just want me to be ok and pretend like nothing ever happened but Emotionally I’m done. Mentally I’m drained. Spiritually I’m dead. Physically I smile.